No matter how much thanks you give for a good fortune, it sometimes only lasts so long. It seems that we are now joining the ranks of the more seasoned epilepsy families. Today was yet another seizure day for Oliver. His 6th in the last 2 months. It was mild but long. Just like on Christmas Eve, he seemed to be under a spell, watching an aura, feeling something strange but almost pleasurable. Like maybe that feeling of losing your stomach when you go over a whoop-de-doo on a hilly road. Or maybe it's more like watching the wonder of the world unfold on magic mushrooms. Maybe he's meeting the Buddha. Who knows, man...
2020 has been a year of unprecedented occurrence. To varying degrees, the virus has affected us all. It’s led to isolation, loss of livelihood and in many cases, loss of life itself. Families ripped apart, so many have suffered deeply. Fights over equality, politics and government control have left gapping wounds in the unity of our people. There is no... Continue Reading →
Parenting a medically complex child is not as cut and dry as it may seem. Sure, doctors may be very clear on what “proper protocol” might be, but for the people actually living this life, there are many factors to weigh while making decisions. In the medically fragile world, the battles choose you. And today, we chose to fight this one at home.
Wow!! We won the sleep study lottery today! The hospital called at 3 this afternoon saying they had a last minute cancellation and could get Oliver in tonight if we rushed down to Seattle. So here we are. The 6 hour round trip, a small price to pay, for possible answers that might relieve his... Continue Reading →
Living on farms for much of my 20’s, harvest season was always my favorite time of year. That experience of waking up one morning and actually being able to smell the transition to fall, feel the crispness to the air and sense the change is nature’s pace, seemingly out of nowhere. It’s a busy time for farmers... Continue Reading →
I am writing today with the acknowledgement that I feel stuck but with the belief that this will be my way out. I am writing today to get past the writer’s block, through my self-confidence struggles, and beyond the belief that I have nothing to offer the world in my current state of brokenness. For the... Continue Reading →
We have been in and out of a many hospitals in the five years since Oliver‘s birth and each of them has had attributes that I have very much appreciated. But I have to say, our new medical home, Seattle Children’s, has it all. Friendly staff greet you when you call to schedule appointments. They... Continue Reading →
Whether it be the death of our identity, our ego, of a relationship, of a dream we thought would one day be, or the disintegration of our human bodies, we think of death as the ultimate end, a ceasing of something we wanted to prolong. "It’s not what happens. It’s how you then react to it. It’s not what happens. It’s how you then react to it.”
As much as I hone my writing skills, I don’t believe I will ever be able to fully capture in words, the beautiful tragedy of the medically complex life. Most outsiders would see only the suffering and the limitations. But what is missing from that perspective, is the striking beauty and unique opportunities that stand... Continue Reading →
I woke up this morning to the all-too-familiar sound of destruction, our cat digging her claws into the soft pine wood of the closet door frame. I stumbled out of bed and batted her away asking myself for the four millionth time, "Why do we have pets?" Just then a chill ran through my body... Continue Reading →
Ahhh man… Life sure is a humbling experience right now (Insert laughing/facepalm emojis) So, I honestly thought I was doing pretty well this second week of school. Sure, I’ve forgotten the COVID check paperwork every day. I didn’t realize he needed a show and tell item one day and then the next day I brought one that... Continue Reading →
Wow! What a roller-coaster of a 24 hrs.! Yesterday, the school year got off to a rousing start with mommy completely failing the first day of kindergarten E-learning. Due to extreme sleep deprivation causing a total inability to concentrate on much of anything these days, I somehow misunderstood that there was, in fact, much more to... Continue Reading →