The Running of the Salmon

Whether it be the death of our identity, our ego, of a relationship, of a dream we thought would one day be, or the disintegration of our human bodies, we think of death as the ultimate end, a ceasing of something we wanted to prolong. "It’s not what happens. It’s how you then react to it. It’s not what happens. It’s how you then react to it.”

Life Flight

As much as I hone my writing skills, I don’t believe I will ever be able to fully capture in words, the beautiful tragedy of the medically complex life.  Most outsiders would see only the suffering and the limitations. But what is missing from that perspective, is the striking beauty and unique opportunities that stand... Continue Reading →

Welcome to the Shit Show

 I woke up this morning to the all-too-familiar sound of destruction, our cat digging her claws into the soft pine wood of the closet door frame. I stumbled out of bed and batted her away asking myself for the four millionth time, "Why do we have pets?" Just then a chill ran through my body... Continue Reading →

Hot Mess Express

Ahhh man… Life sure is a humbling experience right now (Insert laughing/facepalm emojis) So, I honestly thought I was doing pretty well this second week of school.  Sure, I’ve forgotten the COVID check paperwork every day.  I didn’t realize he needed a show and tell item one day and then the next day I brought one that... Continue Reading →

Rebuilding the Team

Wow! What a roller-coaster of a 24 hrs.! Yesterday, the school year got off to a rousing start with mommy completely failing the first day of kindergarten E-learning.  Due to extreme sleep deprivation causing a total inability to concentrate on much of anything these days, I somehow misunderstood that there was, in fact, much more to... Continue Reading →

Being a Motherfucking Sorcerer

We are living in some pretty crazy times right now.  As teachers and parents scramble to figure out the intricacies of e-schooling (like how to properly mute the zoom lesson so the class doesn’t hear how often you employ expletives in your household), and as the COVID numbers continue to rise, the roller-coaster of 2020 speeds... Continue Reading →

Some Days…

Some days, you wake up to cloudy skies and a whole bunch of hours ahead and you still wonder, 5 years in, “Do I have it in me to do this again today?” Of course you do.  You have to. Some days, you drag your exhausted body out of bed and dig deep into the... Continue Reading →

The COVID Burn

*** I have been cautioned by some about sharing the truth of my experience right now due to the level of darkness it involves which, of course, is reflected in my writing.  While I respect that advice and do want this space to be one of hope and encouragement, I cannot in good conscience, omit significant... Continue Reading →

Caught in the Brambles

Wild berry foraging…I couldn’t think of a better way to spend a mental health afternoon… And in fact, it struck me during my harvest, that there is much to be gained in terms of mental and emotional wellness, by spending an afternoon steeped in the wisdom of the berry bramble.  The meadows are quiet.  The birds... Continue Reading →

Transforming Through Pain

One of the greatest gifts a horrific tragedy can give us, is the depth of pain we feel in its’ aftermath.  Wait what?  I know, that sounds like complete horseshit.  But it’s true.  The unimaginable pain we feel after we experience loss is, for most of us, followed immediately by the desire to escape that pain.  Often we don’t... Continue Reading →

Hope Street

As I walked through my neighborhood to the grocery store for the last time today, it felt like I had come full circle.  Arriving in LA 6 years ago, I had no car, I had no kids and I walked everywhere.  Hearing my flip flops hitting that same sidewalk this afternoon reminded me of those early days,... Continue Reading →

Celebrating 5 Years of Life

My tiny little angel with a great big heart and deep knowing eyes ... today we celebrate the 5th anniversary of our Birthing Day. The moment that you dipped your toes into this world, and then pulled them back, not quite sure if you wanted to stay.  I’m so glad you did. ❤ I know that the... Continue Reading →

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