Welcome to the Shit Show

 I woke up this morning to the all-too-familiar sound of destruction, our cat digging her claws into the soft pine wood of the closet door frame. I stumbled out of bed and batted her away asking myself for the four millionth time, "Why do we have pets?" Just then a chill ran through my body... Continue Reading →

Hot Mess Express

Ahhh man… Life sure is a humbling experience right now (Insert laughing/facepalm emojis) So, I honestly thought I was doing pretty well this second week of school.  Sure, I’ve forgotten the COVID check paperwork every day.  I didn’t realize he needed a show and tell item one day and then the next day I brought one that... Continue Reading →

Some Days…

Some days, you wake up to cloudy skies and a whole bunch of hours ahead and you still wonder, 5 years in, “Do I have it in me to do this again today?” Of course you do.  You have to. Some days, you drag your exhausted body out of bed and dig deep into the... Continue Reading →

The Anniversary of an Odyssey

Yesterday, the one-year anniversary of Oliver’s Odyssey slipped quietly by.  I had planned to do something big, in celebration, but true to the current theme of our life, the month leading up to this special day was filled with chaos and little opportunity for creativity.   But this only solidifies in my mind one of the greatest... Continue Reading →

May the Angels Fly High

Most of us share the basic human desire to escape pain. It is weeks like this one that illuminate the desperate attempts my mind makes to transcend my own.  Our HIE community was shaken by the passing of 3 of our children over the last week.  This unbelievable loss has thrust me hard back into... Continue Reading →

1 Step Forward, 2 Steps Back

If, five years ago, someone would have told me that I would soon be a person who not only used a calendar, but absolutely depended on one to keep an insanely packed schedule of appointments straight, I would’ve laughed out loud. Calendars were never my style. I was way too carefree and laissez faire for... Continue Reading →

The Alchemy of Experience

Sometimes I barely recognize the person I’ve become. I took this photo just before walking in to confront our respite agency about why they aren’t staffing our hours with competent caregivers. Five years ago I never could’ve imagined dressing in this conservative outfit and coolly and confidently walking into an office to deal with an... Continue Reading →

And the Waves Crash Down

Until today, it had been a couple of years since I’d had a full blown panic attack.  I used to get them a lot when Oliver was little.  Back then the stress was just too great and my mind was constantly running wild.  But lately I’ve felt strength and calm and relative stability (my husband would laugh at... Continue Reading →

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