And Just Like That… Life Begins Again.

I am not a person who holds center well.  I experience this life with an, honestly, exhausting level of intensity.   At this point, for me, dispassion is an unattainable philosophical concept, far outside my reach.  And although I’ve developed the ability to see the highs and lows coming, when I am in the midst of them, they are... Continue Reading →

Peeling the Onion

It has been said that the grieving process is like peeling an onion.  As each layer falls away, it gives the gift of deeper understanding and also reveals the next level of processing. The stages don’t go smoothly from 1-5… denial, anger, bargaining, depression and then acceptance.  They are interwoven and revisit you many times even after... Continue Reading →

Happy Birthday Niccolo!!

Being the little brother of a special needs sibling has it's perks and some downsides too. On one hand, there's tons of super cool equipment to climb on, swings bolted to the ceiling of the living room, a therapy center that seems to be your own personal playground and PLENTY of trips to the doctors... Continue Reading →

Coming Home

It’s our first day home from the hospital and while I do feel great relief, there is also a weight of sadness plaguing my heart. I know this feeling. I recognize it because I’ve experienced it many times before. It is the resurfacing of grief.  The unique thing about having a child with a brain... Continue Reading →

Armpits and Toothpaste

The early hours of this morning felt like something right out of a twisted psychological thriller.  Oliver’s schedule is pretty off and he was still wide awake at midnight.  I lied down in the parent chair next to his bed, put on the tv and tried to rest, hoping he would fall asleep too.  We both started to... Continue Reading →

Simple Joys

Hot showers have always been one of my most favorite things in the whole world.  When I’m tired, sick, stressed, worried, sleepy or wound up… a hot shower is always the cure to my ails.  I love the calming caress of the water as it falls over my shoulders, melting away the tension and easing my worried... Continue Reading →

1 Step Forward, 2 Steps Back

If, five years ago, someone would have told me that I would soon be a person who not only used a calendar, but absolutely depended on one to keep an insanely packed schedule of appointments straight, I would’ve laughed out loud. Calendars were never my style. I was way too carefree and laissez faire for... Continue Reading →

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